Hello!
I’ve decided to restart this blog. Not sure what to post yet, but I want to share what I have in me with the world.
Who am I? Am I interesting? Should anyone care? (I don’t think so!)
I’ll go by Rue. I’m autistic and a former NEET (Not in Education, Employment, or Training) who was also a major social recluse. I have now graduated into becoming a *moderate* social recluse. Yay! I hated the real world because I don’t fit in, and I was sick of being treated poorly for it. I still don’t like the real world, but that’s starting to change the more beauty I see in it. A recent development, but a development nonetheless! There’s plenty of us around, isn’t there? Lots of us socially inept introverts who became NEET hermits and sit at home all day on the internet. The internet is our home, our safe space. A place where we aren’t judged, unlike the horrible analog world. I love being online because it feeds my insatiable hunger for knowledge and I get to not have to go through the many trials and tribulations that is… [drum roll] Social Cues. My worst enemy. Staying at home online all the time meant no more social cues! No more social anxiety! I can be free! I’m not under so much stress from people and being hypervigilant about every action I take down to How I Breathe that it’s making me experience heart attack symptoms! Unfortunately, it’s actually unhealthy to withdraw from the world, especially for months at a time. Oopsie!
Anyways!
I like music, photography, art, literature, dancing, and many more things. I’m a bit of a nerd. I mean, I read academic articles for fun! I enjoy them, especially ones on niche topics. I like reading and writing. I like a lot of things, and most things I like I can do from home. If only I could walk in forests and take nature pictures at home too… then I would never need to leave my house. Wouldn’t that be great? Staying home all the time, no more societal pressure, no more cringe, just freedom. Why couldn’t I be like the other net people who lacks outdoor hobbies? I don’t hike though, that’s one thing I won’t do. I will do walking trails. I have a lot of things I enjoy, so I’m not miserable all the time. I’d recommend doing that! Do not withdraw from society!
Goals of this blog? I talk a lot. Everyone IRL knows me for never shutting up. By everyone, I mean my family and my few friends. I don’t have many, but I love the ones I have. I want to share my thoughts. I want to share what I learn. I hope people read this blog and become empowered, or find something to relate to, or even to laugh at. Hopefully, I’ll share some wise words sometimes.
I’ve had a hard time even opening this blog to look at it because I don’t want to be cringe. I’ve decided that “cringe is free” applies to me too, not only the other internet people out there! I will share it here! Even if I look back at this and suffer from a severe cringe attack, at least I know I was free.
Signing off,
Rue.
